August 12th, 2010
Last night, I had a party with a bunch of old friends. We are in Seattle for the week, our home for six years before we moved to a new town, just months before my diagnosis.
It has been challenging being in a new place, being so vulnerable and needy. Our closest friends were far away and did an amazing job of being there for us. Some of them flew out to help. Some of them sent notes and gifts. Some of them phoned or emailed or commented on my blog. Our friend Howie sold some of his photographs to help us cover our medical expenses.
But last night was a party. And I got to hug so many people from all different parts of this other chapter of my life. I had the gift of being reminded of who I was before I became the Woman with Cancer. I saw former students, colleagues, friends, and neighbors. I got to talk to some more than others, but I gave everybody I saw a great big hug.
Of course, cancer was still in the room. My friend Josh‘s kids were there, running around and playing with the other children, having buried their dad a week before. My friend Phil, who is about to celebrate his 5 year Cancerversary, was there with his family. He is as healthy and happy as I have ever seen him. A couple of other people who lost family members to cancer had emotional conversations with me. The brutality and arbitrariness of this disease was in the room.
Right now, I am in limbo. My cancer story is between Josh’s and Phil’s. We don’t know for sure what my ending will be.
But in the meantime, I am happy to be here. And I am grateful to celebrate how far I have come. I am glad for the embrace of good friends.
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